Three years ago tonight

My happy and healthy Mom had dinner here with my family. It was simple and they just stopped by and ate with us. Nothing major, no photos taken....  just time spent together eating and hanging out for a bit. Then, sometime within the next 24 hours she died. That was it. She was gone forever and I had no clue it was coming. I cannot stop wishing I had known what was coming so I could have appreciated that simple dinner a little more. I miss everything about her. She was honestly my best friend and I talked to her at least a couple times every single day. To go from that to her just being gone is still hard to accept. Sometimes it seems like just yesterday, sometimes it seems like a lifetime since I heard her laugh in person. I have an audio file of her laugh I play almost every day. I could not even handle listening to it tonight. It just broke my heart. I hope there is no pain in Heaven and I hope she can see down and view the awesome things the kids say and do. I just want her back. I know that is wrong to wish for, but I cannot stop.

This picture just sums up how most people remember my Mom. Happy and laughing. She made everything more fun just by her being around. I am sad that my kids will not have her love surrounding them their whole lives. I was very lucky to be her kid.